a place..

there's a place,filled with entire darkness
no light should b found..all lonely..
this place,exist in human heart..those who were born as a shadow..looking everything passing by
people enjoy,in their colourful world,with their friends,they celebrate their success,with everyone..
they were satisfy just to see ppls being happy,enjoying,but no1 will ever know,the darkness within their heart..
a past that will never change..a person that was born in the world of darkness,is a person that fills with darkness in their heart,a person that was born in the world of darkness,as a despiteful shadow ..will remain in their heart,for the entire life..
trust no1 , but same beings,ppls from the colourful world..cant be trusted...
u trusted them,but in the end,u get nothing..and the more u trusted them..u are digging ur own grave more deeper...or u could say,u lost ur own position in the world of darkness..and ending up killing urself..
im sure that no1 will like to b lonely..yes,im this kind of person..in the past,i tried to run from loneliness..but in the end its still the same..bcoz im a person that is from the world of darkness..
i trusted ppls..but in the end i get nothing..its still the same after all..its just something that keeps on repeating..
now,i love the dark,i like the loneliness,and i have hatred for all of the ppls..

holiday

started holiday 3days ago,today is monday , 1st of june
im at my mum's house currently,with my sis
well, everything is going smoothly, till that dad call and ask me to go to tuition,skip just once or twice wont keep me far apart from my studies,i wonder why his mind was so old-minded..
just only know how to disturb and giving me stress,well,no matter how im NOT going home tomorrow..
6th of june,will b going out to sg wang again,hope nothing goes wrong before then....
last saturday went to puteri ampang for their chinese society,saw jie ning and KQ..for...just awhile..
suddenly feel like anything im doing, there will b a blockage..
im so tired of it...so tired..
things can b gone so easily,chances might b gone without a trace leaving nothing
and yet , i keep on losing and losing it all..
still feel so lonely in my world after so much things happened in my life..
feel so numb for now..cant even feel a single thing..
issit so tough ? issit so hard ? issit so disappoint?
yes, it is..everything that is tough, u try hard to overcome it,but in the end..it is filled with disappointment..
my sis is almost same like me,walking in the shadows,living a doppelganger life
no1 would understand..no1 would...

5.9.2009

today so fun xD
my friend birthday,so me and me friends they all go out to sg wang
at 1st bcoz my leg hurt = = i tot cannot roller de,but then i go try xD
like normal wor o.O!!
then roller so long every1 tired jor so we go out then go gasoline eat xD
then my mei rampas my food = =
after that all wan go back de~so they all go lrt
i walk go pavillion find my mum since she's there to fetch me = =
then xD i sudd feel dun wan go back home = = so i ask her to send me to hang tuah lrt station xD
so i went back to ampang and meet with my mei and my friends o.O
then we all go cc ( wah!!) until 9.15 at night = = so geng
then ah we go eat pizza o.O!! until 10 oclock = =
then only go home..zha dao!!
1st time so late go home
then receive sms from my kai jie
she borned a baby xD!! my kai brother come out liao~
means today is my friend+my kai jie+ her son d birthday !!! o.O special day!!

sick jor = =

sick jor for the whole week = = fever 39degree
yet im still going for school and tuition -.-...
now okok liao,at least no headache jor xD
so boring now..nothing to do
yesterday holiday = = also nothing to do nia...online jor whole day
suddenly i feel like eating alot of things xD coz fever that time cannot eat many things T-T
haha...

sijil day = =???

I wonder issit today sijil day = =? why suddenly i get so many sijils xD
sijil penyertaan,sijil penghargaan.....lolx = =
B.M teacher ask us to passup all the latihan and nota..omg..this kills all of us in the class
coz i know almost all of us din even touch B.M work for a long time xD
so...when its B.M period..we decided to run for our life ..LOL
more than half of our class d ppl go to the hall for choral speaking training ><
those who din join the choral speaking all have to stay in class = =
ME? i go and find teacher xD (i so evil)
and since i din found the teacher..(other teacher say our BM teacher not here)
I went home..LOL..some of my classmates still sit inside the class wait the time to pass..lolx
then went home not even 10mins then go out again = = coz need back school for kokurikulum activity = = ...take jor my phone then i go out buy things eat lu..
da bao nasi lemak then go buy hotdog xD
go back school eat jor wait time pass ~ ntg to do..3 oclock then go home luuu...
oh ya , grandma came to my mum's house last saturday , all my cousins come my house ==
so many ppl in my house last saturday and sunday..
anyway,i called her on phone last saturday , she have a sweet and nice voice =P..

Cloudy day..but feel so hot..

It's cloudy today,but wonder why i feel that its so hot = =?
someone went to genting liao..waiting her to sms me and tell me that to call her..
listening the songs she send me before..it brings back lots of memories..memories of the days that i just met her..i wont forget those days forever..
later have to go to my mum's place at subang again le..
i feel so dizzy now..wan pengsan jor..mayb nt enuff sleep..coz yesterday night keep wake up d..
wake up..see the phone got sms anot..then sleep back..wake up..see phone..sleep..
haha..mayb im waiting and wishing for her reply gua..
wad to do now?im so boring nia...ntg to do..waiting for her to sms me back == waiting waiting waiting...

I cAmE BaCk To My BloG FiNaLLy = =

Well,just saw someone's blog ,she's still writting blog though
and i delete many of my blogs coz i dun wish to think back
there's too many things in my past which i dun wan to think back
Getting busier and busier this year,Its april now and i still have a month to go before the midyear exam
Cracking my head with the add maths,physics,chemistry and biology = = trying to understand and memorising as much as i could..hope i can cope with the new exam style,coz sejarah teacher said that we'll have essay and structure in midyear exam for sejarah..and in addition,im still taking extra subject ( Accounts)
Teacher said that the exam will held longer than 1week = = omg..means i have to sit on the study table for at least 2weeks..
well = = just hope exam dun come so fast >< if not im dead
LoL..missed someone for so long liao~but the feeling i missed her these days are more strong than last time = = missed her so much...lol..if she saw this ><>< malu malu...ish...xD