a place..

there's a place,filled with entire darkness
no light should b found..all lonely..
this place,exist in human heart..those who were born as a shadow..looking everything passing by
people enjoy,in their colourful world,with their friends,they celebrate their success,with everyone..
they were satisfy just to see ppls being happy,enjoying,but no1 will ever know,the darkness within their heart..
a past that will never change..a person that was born in the world of darkness,is a person that fills with darkness in their heart,a person that was born in the world of darkness,as a despiteful shadow ..will remain in their heart,for the entire life..
trust no1 , but same beings,ppls from the colourful world..cant be trusted...
u trusted them,but in the end,u get nothing..and the more u trusted them..u are digging ur own grave more deeper...or u could say,u lost ur own position in the world of darkness..and ending up killing urself..
im sure that no1 will like to b lonely..yes,im this kind of person..in the past,i tried to run from loneliness..but in the end its still the same..bcoz im a person that is from the world of darkness..
i trusted ppls..but in the end i get nothing..its still the same after all..its just something that keeps on repeating..
now,i love the dark,i like the loneliness,and i have hatred for all of the ppls..

holiday

started holiday 3days ago,today is monday , 1st of june
im at my mum's house currently,with my sis
well, everything is going smoothly, till that dad call and ask me to go to tuition,skip just once or twice wont keep me far apart from my studies,i wonder why his mind was so old-minded..
just only know how to disturb and giving me stress,well,no matter how im NOT going home tomorrow..
6th of june,will b going out to sg wang again,hope nothing goes wrong before then....
last saturday went to puteri ampang for their chinese society,saw jie ning and KQ..for...just awhile..
suddenly feel like anything im doing, there will b a blockage..
im so tired of it...so tired..
things can b gone so easily,chances might b gone without a trace leaving nothing
and yet , i keep on losing and losing it all..
still feel so lonely in my world after so much things happened in my life..
feel so numb for now..cant even feel a single thing..
issit so tough ? issit so hard ? issit so disappoint?
yes, it is..everything that is tough, u try hard to overcome it,but in the end..it is filled with disappointment..
my sis is almost same like me,walking in the shadows,living a doppelganger life
no1 would understand..no1 would...